Play Ball!

I spent Sunday afternoon watching little league, All-Star T-ball games in the heat. I chose to spend the day at the ballpark because my great-nephew Caleb was playing. My husband was at work so that left me and Josh home alone so we ventured out to have a little B-ball fun in the sun. They had the photographers that do the pro teams action photos there to take pics of the little guys which was really cool. They got several shots of Caleb in action, shots that show a ball player's passion and heart for the game. What I noticed though as we flipped through the photos of all the team's shots sent a knife through my heart. There sitting in the stands in every shot was this really large, bloated lady who looked to be miserably existing while beautiful, healthy people surrounded her cheering the team on. That person was me. My heart sank as I realized what I had become. I can look back on so many times in my life when I didn't look the way I wanted. But this time it isn't just that I don't look the way I want. My life is slowly disappearing. Disappearing into a depressing and unhappy place. That is why I am hell bent on changing it. No more lose forty pounds in forty days. No more Medifast. No more, only eat this or only eat that. I know in my heart that God never intended for us to sit around all day in front of TV or computers. He never intended for us to eat processed and fast foods everyday. He created an abundance of healthy options for us all. Only some of US are too dumb to do it. I am using Bob Greene's plan which stresses, plain old good, healthy and fresh foods and daily exercise. I am using the Slender You machines every other day and walking on the treadmill everyday for 30 minutes. I am having to break up that 30 into 3 ten minute sessions right now, but that will change. You might say I am in the first inning of my own sort of ballgame right now. One that I am guaranteed to win if I just keep playing! Play ball!!!!!!